** A Simple Gift **

I  know my love for you is not in vain

This tears will soon fall because of what I gain

I have no fears because I won't face life alone

With you I am no longer on my own.

Though I had walked a path of pain and strife

I still smile and feel blessed beyond compare

You and my kids are God's gift in my life

For you're my cherished treasures so rare.

I may not be the right girl you once planned

I may not be as young as those you once had

But what I can be proud offering to you

Is my purest love and to be forever true.

So many times you would always hear me cry

Often times you have witnessed my weakness

But those tears and fears brings out messages

Of me being afraid of losing you.

Twenty one months of longing for your presence
Seconds of wishful hopes for your embrace

My love for you still remains so strong
My promise of true love still lingers on.

If one day you find time and decide to come

My kids and I will be welcoming you

to Our "New Home".

Happy Birthday Hon .. We Love You ;)

✿Sie✿

From: Princess ___

From: Baby Prince ___

- he says he is sponge bob hehehe..he is only 3 but look *clap claps* -

- Dada means father *blink* -

Kindly Listen Hon..this is for you ;)

For all the times I wore my self pity like a favorite shirt All wrapped up in that hurt For every glass I saw, I saw half empty Now it overflows like a river through my soul From every doubt I had, I'm finally free I truly believe God gave me you to show me what's real There's more to life than just how I feel And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes And all that I live for though I didn't know why Now I do, 'cause God gave me you ;)

♥We are holding on to your promise..we love you so much..we will always be here waiting for you♥ ☺We don't know where the future may lead us but ..Whatever happens Hon ..THANK YOU.. for everything, for Giving me and my kids a chance to be happy and to be a part of your life .. we are blessed because God has given us pure joy through YOU .. of all the ups and downs that we have been through I have no regrets making you as one of the most important person in my life .. I love You so much Hon☺

♫ HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♫

** Monday Gratitude - Marie Harmony .. life with my kids ~

Being a single Mom of two kids is never easy. Some may say being inside the house and taking care of kids is the easiest job a woman can get. Think again !!! I have experienced several people saying to me oh you are only taking care of your kids while me I have good career and I earn much. I just can't understand why do people look down on Moms staying at home. On my own experience I say being a Mom is the most challenging work any woman could have!!!

I am living only with my two kids in our home so I experienced being sick and waking up some nights on the floor because I fainted and had a slight heart attack again but I can't do anything but to stand up on my own and wake up the next morning cooking breakfast for my kids. I can't be weak because my kids needs me.

There are times when I am having my own problems in life and I cry and I needed someone to hug me at night or just hold my hand and let me feel that everything will be ok. But I need to set aside my own fears and dry my tears alone and learn to comfort myself because my kids are there needing for a strong Mom with a smile on her face each day.

It is not easy being a Mom and now a single Mom..but I am Grateful because I see my kids being raised the right way. My kids are so lovable, kind and caring. Seeing them each day growing and learning with them gives each moment pure joy. With them I learned to accept each day as a step by step process.

Through their eyes I saw HOPE of having a complete and happy family in the future. Through their unconditional love I learned to love back without expecting too much in return..just giving your purest and deepest love without any conditions. I have enjoyed my career before but nothing can replace my work of being a Mom.

I am so grateful because God gave me a chance to be a Mother, my kids are my biggest and greatest fulfillment in life.. I am Proud being a Single Mom!!!

Join Us every Monday with Marie Harmony's

 "Monday Gratitude - Open Your Heart To Love"
-- Diary Of A Heart In Transit --

Let Us all Start Our Week Right by giving Thanks and being Grateful

 Have a Blessed Monday Everyone ;)

**I Was Wrong and I Learned It The Hard Way..

Do you ever looked down on yourself? I admit that I have always felt unimportant, worthless, incompetent and rejected. Most of my life I have lived inside my lonely little world and I have always locked myself from other people. I always hide myself from groups of people pretending that I am invisible and making sure I won't get noticed. If you have been my long time friends here in blogger you know my story behind why. Maybe because of the painful childhood and abusive experiences that I had. My mind was set that people often abuse me when I show kindness to them.

I often looked at myself as a "nobody" to everyone. One failure was like a big deal to my own self. Behind these emotions was me saying to myself  " I can survive by my own self and I needed no one ". I could say I am really good in auditing functions when I was working and Yes even on every persons life. I often see someone's fault so easily and say I can do it on my own. I became a person who always hate imperfections and when I FAIL my loved ones I feel worthless and unimportant.

These past few days my world turned black and I felt like I was drowning in depression again. I felt I FAILED because of all the mistakes that I have done. Depression almost killed me. I can't sleep and I had nightmares haunting me again. A black Shadow coming back and stealing my life away from me. ALL those past hurts came back even from my childhood, all those hurting words and physical abuse that I had, all those hurting words and people who have abused me, all of those painful words where ringing inside my head.

I was about to give up my life that night. I was vomiting because of depression and I couldn't eat. I just felt so alone and so Weak! Maybe all of you are saying I am so dramatic but I can't explain the damage that pain has caused into my life. I tend to Blame people of the pains that I went through. 

 I WAS COMPLETELY WRONG. I am part to blame of these pains that I had. I need a MAJOR CHANGE in my life. That same night after I prayed and asked God's help He made me see that I can't be a loner forever. That He sees me as a person of worth and of value. He uses people to make me feel and see the changes that I should do in my life. My hon always says and teaches me to stand firm and NEVER let anyone abuse me again. My HON is right, because if there ARE things lacking in my life now it is to LEARN to FIGHT and not to permit anyone to trample on me again and TO LOVE WITH ONE'S IMPERFECTIONS. My KIDS taught me UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. I have been easily irritated and angry at times but they have always been their to comfort and dry my tears when I needed them.

I am learning to be CONTENTED on what others can give and NOT TO EXPECT TOO MUCH!!!

As the days go by I can say the "REAL ME" is still healing!!! I am imperfect, each day is a learning process for me and Sie is still Growing and Hoping ;)

..Crossroads**

There are times in life

When just being Brave is

All we need to be

We may not always know

What to do next

Or How to get there

But if we just Stay Strong

Trust in our Faith

Make the Very Best Choices

We Possibly Can

A few things May Not go as Planned

But if We are Determined to Go On

Almost Everything Will

Work Out Right

** A Way of Life ..

Somewhere and Sometimes in our life

We Fail

We get Hurt

We get Lost

We Cry

But those Sometimes are the Reasons Why We

Start All Over

Learn to Mend our Wounds

Learn to Ask Directions

Stand Up Again

Hold On and

Move On

Everything that happens in our lives has a Reason

Every Happening Leads to Another

Let us All Learn

From each Mistake

  Celebrate Every Triumph

Treasure Each Moment

Don't Look Back

Live Again

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..My Life's Reflections* -- An answered Prayer

Her life dreams was on it's highest peak      

Beauty shines, an envy to anyone who seek      

The richness in her life found her way with ease 

Everyone gives false praise to whatever she sees.

The sun rises and falls like a curtain day by day

Faithfully doing her life's given routine each day

The tides of her busy life continues to roar

Flowing quickly with time not knowing herself anymore.

Life's tides did turn and all around her was deep darkness

She was captured by shadows of violence and caged loneliness

Earthly wealth, fame and beauty have now flown

She was neglected, trampled and left alone.

She stayed on the valley of sorrow and pain

With no one to uphold her or even sustain 

Trapped on her life full of fears and tears

Struggling for her life's freedom for many years.

In front of her mirror she sees her true self

Tears hastily falls because she was left all by herself

Realizing all those earthly pleasures are useless

Being unhappy and empty inside, life is meaningless.

She didn't wished for these things to happen in her life

All came in one unexpected day filled with painful strife

But she still prays for a simple happy life to make her whole

A life with someone to help her heal the broken pieces of her soul. 

Now her world is turning around again

Now with a new life that was given to her unexpectedly

Her gloomy dark days are gone 

God's hand moved and blessed her with another chance

She learned to surrender and cast all her burdens to Him

Now her prayers are answered one by one

Her tears have now turned to tears of joy

Her hopes and God's promises are now beginning to be fulfilled

God moves in mysterious ways and for the past few days God showed me that He answers our prayers in His due time..God has blessed me with my kids ..they have been my inspiration to hold on and hope for a better future..you have witnessed how I have survived every struggle in my life..I had thought of giving up last week but I still chose to hold on and I just cried and just surrendered all my plans to God..

Now another answered Prayer:  I will be working again next week..I have been given a chance to work and apply my auditing experience again when I worked in a bank before.. this is another proof that "God is not finished with us yet".. we all go through stages and now I believe with our faith in God..He will move in our behalf..He knows what's best for us and our hearts desire will be given to us if it is His will and in His Due time..

My life story is a testimony of His love..it happened to my life.. I'm sure it can happen to all of US..one answered prayer at a time ;)

 

P.S.. I'm so sorry if I haven't visited your sites lately..I'll be having my new job next week so I am busy packing our things..we will be transferring our residence and my kids school too..I'll be visiting you all when my kids and I are already on our new home..Thank You..I miss you all *hugs* ;)

         

* Holding On..

 

 Darkness  is  gathering  all  around

Searching for true peace to be found

Confused souls crippled with fear

Facing troubles seems near

Standing up again

After each fall

Full of hope

To cope

Life

✿

 ✿✿✿

 ✿

Tired

Scuffling

But Hoping

Still Holding On

Wishing  To  See  Light

On our path's darkest night

Trusting our plans to His will

Never   giving   up  on   our   lives

For in His presence we can be still

 

 Special Thanks to:

Princess Fiona @ The Princess Passions

Nonet Poem (hour glass) following with syllable   

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♥ We are all humans and all of us grows weary and tired of our life's ups and downs BUT it doesn't mean we are giving up..through His guidance and because of LOVE we will always regain our strength back..holding on full of Hope and Joy in our Hearts ♥

*Life and Time*

Life is like a river flowing each day  
It can't go back to where in once was

Until time makes each moment pass

So let us live as if this day

Is going to be our last

If you have to buy time, would there be any difference in the way you would spend it? Would you use the minutes and hours and days of your life more wisely?

We can’t possess every minute and hours in our lives. It is given to us freely. But that doesn’t excuse us from using it carefully and wisely. In every minute of our lives we should learn to take advantage of the opportunities that time provides for us to love and enjoy life.

This does mean we should not be working every single moment and every minute of our lives. It’s necessary to take a break, give yourself time to relax and smile and appreciate even the smallest blessings that we have received.

We can use our time wisely when we learn to combine "appropriate STOPS" with "proper STEPS". Time is so precious; let us learn to handle it with care."Let us learn to love now and do our very best to love while there is still time."- Life is so short, now is the right time to share love with those people whom we love-." Let us start and not wait because one day we might wake up missing them. Don't be late ♥



P.S. to all of my friends I have visited all of your sites and I always leave a comment after reading each post..but lately I noticed some of my comments are disappearing after a few hours..kindly check it on your spam box maybe it went there and I don't know why..this has been happening lately and on my case maybe the last one was the 30th time or more grrrrrrrr..I am not a spammer wahhhhhhhhh..blogger fix it!!!

**My heart's journey..

Once on my life's long journey

I was raised with all of my life planned

A tool to be perfect was always on my hand

Grasping every learning chart that come

Following what they want me to become.

Transforming me to be a river flowing clean

Bringing forth a perfect daughter to be seen

Everything that I did by myself was wrong

They made me believe it was for me to be strong.

Growing up with my soul on a dusty shelf

Looking down so small on myself

Waiting for my happiness giving stream

To quench my thirst of my life reviving dream.

Now as I turn my life pages

I saw what I lost in ages

Clouded with dark tomorrow's fears

Endless pouring down of my weakening tears.

Once I stumbled on my wishful dream

But my hope for love never failed to beam

I thought darkness took my chance

But he came in an unexpected glance.

Though I was imperfect and torn in his eyes

But still he loved me and listened to my cries

He melted my soul full of frozen fears

Locked my heart with his love for years.

Though all was unplanned in my kingdom

Through imperfections I had my freedom

I had failures on my hurtful dark past

But still I believe for destined love to last.

I have also my dreams to love forevermore

To build a home with him on a happy shore

Never to see again a painful cloud in our sky

No more shadows and tears to dim my eye.

                                                                ✿Sie✿

 

weeeeeeeee..this is the cutest video I have ever seen..I am in cloud 9..love love love ;)

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**Pushing my limits..~Rhyming Bow Poem~

 The

Strong

Wind blows

With sorrows

Dark tomorrows

Suddenly time slows

Her weak tear shows

Fears strength flows

Pierced  bows

Grows

✿ Inside ✿

But COURAGE

✿ Beside ✿

 Her

Soul lives

And  believes

Pains can deceive

If her mind conceive

Faith  in  His  name

Redeemed shame
 Hopes flame

Through

Her

✿Sie✿

This Poem is for Inspirational Purposes Only

Hello dear friends..last week Princess Fiona @ The Princess Passions gave us an Ultimate Challenge..she created her own form of poetry - Acronet™ -. Kindly visit her site for a CLEAR EXAMPLE OF THIS CHALLENGE .

I was one of her students who participated on every challenges that she has for us. But this time her challenge was not to do her Acronet. Her instruction was to do our own form of poetry and not to join two forms of poetry together. I was into joining also two forms but my Hon Beany and Ms.Fiona encouraged me to do a unique one. I was hesitant at first but I did tried my best hihihi..

So friends here's my first attempt to do my own form of poetry..I'll be naming it 

Rhyming Bow Poem™ -..in this form the poem should be Formed Like a Bow And each lines should Rhyme And the chosen topic in Bold letters written at the middle part..in my poem the word is COURAGE. 

The syllable counts per line are: 1,1,2,3,4,5,4,3,2,1,~2,3,2~1,2,3,4,5,4,3,2,1,1

This is my little contribution to your ultimate challenge Princess Fiona and thank you so much to you and Beany for always encouraging me to leave a mark, be unique and be a person with excellence and integrity.As what Princess Fiona said "Art is an exhibition to inspire imagination beyond the realm of replication". I hope you all enjoyed hihihi ;)

BUT Before I go I would like to invite you all my dear friends to kindly visit my hon's site..he has written his poem for me..it is his gift for our 17th monthsary..I'll be more than glad if you'll visit him and leave a comment..here is his site @Beanizer's Instincts.. Thank you soooooooooo much ;)

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and google search 

**Inner Peace...~ Nonet poem challenge~

♥

His 

Awesome

Guiding light

Glowing so bright

Watching with His might

Brings comfort on each fight

Trusting Him to do what's right

Ending life's battles far from sight

Leading weary souls soar on high flight

 Sending His message so true and clear

Her broken heart who has a tear

Now a life beaming with cheer

A soul longs most to hear

His oath to hold dear

Daughter I'm here

Always near

Never

Fear

♥
~♥Sie♥~

 

 Special Thanks to: Princess Fiona

@ The Princess and Passions

Nonet Poem (in reverse) following with syllable   

counts per line of: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 

*Trusting our Lord's faithfulness dispels our fearfulness*

Hello everyone this is again a challenge from our dear friend and mentor Princess Fiona  She has always inspired us to write and discover the hidden talents that we have. I have never written any poem before but when Ms.Fiona introduced to us Fibonacci poetry last December we were all encouraged to try. On goes with the different challenges which gave us a quick start and a push to challenge ourselves in writing poems with different forms.

I am a proud student of her school of poetry hihihi..I have still many things to learn and I am always eager to know more..it is one way of showing my appreciation for all the help she has done. I don't know if it is right but I tried and I enjoyed writing it. It is my little contribution for her new form of poetry. For the instructions of this poem kindly visit her awesome site @ The Princess Passions..enrollment is still going on..no fees it is for free hihihi..so Come And Join The Fun weeeeee..☺

Ms.Fiona my hon and I are done with our assignments..kindly consider my work also his..

so we will have same grades hihihi..can we have are chocos pweeeease..

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