None of us knows what tomorrow holds. Sometimes God's will involves us walking through hurt and pain. At other times we may have to choose the path of Letting Go no matter how painful it is because we know what is right.
Monday, May 18, 2015
Whatever my reasons are the best armor I can do to protect my Shattered Heart is SILENCE. I always believed that in everything God allows to happen has a reason. We meet people and they come and go in our lives. One reason is to make us feel loved or to hurt us for us to learn and become stronger. Love is the best emotion a person can have but it is also the greatest pain one can experience when it is over. My heart is still shattered but not totally damaged.
God has given me this time to maybe seclude myself from the outside world. I have been serving people and thinking on how I can help someone smile and encouraging them to be strong. All of my life I realized that I forgot the most important person - MYSELF. I will still continue to touch people and to be there for them but for now that I am so down and alone I think it is time for me to learn also to reward and love myself more.
I am slowly rebuilding my heart because I believe that there is no such thing as a shattered heart but a heart that is learning to love more and be better. Forgiving myself from my past mistakes and for allowing those people to mistreat and fool me. It is not an easy journey but with one step of faith I know my heart will heal and learn to trust and love again. I still believe in love and I have to learn it the hard way.
"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!"
I guess the best thing I can do now is to Hold on and love people silently. I have been loud at times and vocal of my feelings but now I learned that the best way to let my heart heal is to be silent and just let this love be an inspiration for me to move on and still hope that there is a road to FOREVER. To let God be in control and let love find it's way back to my heart.
Still hopeful that my heart will sing this song someday. A song I usually sang way back in my college days and until now if I just want to feel loved even without someone special with me.
Monday, May 11, 2015
A Broken Heart
Learns to Forgive
A Deaf Heart
Learns To Listen
A Shattered Heart
Learns To Let Go
It is best to let go of people who doesn't want to stay in your life..those people who doesn't deserve your love..rather than keeping someone CAGED inside an unhappy and selfish relationship.
We sometimes sacrifice our own happiness for other people but at the end of the day the most Important and Priceless Reward we can give ourselves is being TRUE and Honest to Ourselves.
Thursday, April 30, 2015
I am here again in this same situation I was before. I feel so alone. I feel so rejected and ashamed of myself. I thought I have moved on but deep inside I am still stuck to where I used to be. Lord, I know I have many imperfections in my life. I know I shouldn't be writing in my site anymore but this is the only way I can at least cope up and share my feelings.
I have no one else to turn too. I don't want anyone to carry my burdens anymore because in the end all of them leave. I have always been true to every people that I love. I give my full trust to only a few people but still I can't do anything but just to let them go. I can't force anyone to give back the trust and love that I give and I can't force anyone to stay in my life.
I feel so down looking at myself now. I know my life is a mess and I have nothing else to be proud of. I always fall below their expectations. But what they can only see and judge is the person outside of my being. You can see Lord the pureness of my heart. I have always been true and never did I lie to them even to myself.
Lord please help me see that there is still hope. Please heal me Lord. I am still hurting. Some people might have heard my story but they haven't felt the pain I have been through. This pain is unexplainable Lord. Please heal me..I have no one else to turn to right now. All I want is for me and my kids to be happy someday. Please guide me to the path you want me to go.