Hello Everyone :)
First of all..thank you for all your prayers...I am now taking my vitamins, medicines and eating the right diet my doctor has prescribed. It is not easy dealing with my sickness with all the stress of being a single mom. My parents and I have decided for me and my kids to go home. I am sad leaving this place but I can't find any reason to stay. My ex husband has not already been giving the finances for my kids..my father had a mild stroke last year and four years of staying and waiting..it is time for us to go home.
I have tears in my eyes leaving this place because it was "someone's promise" that I have to let go. Leaving behind those hurts that I had. How can I begin and move on if I am still bitter of many things? Until now I am not yet completely healed emotionally. It says in love it takes two to tango...and with my 2 failed relationships I am blaming no one. Maybe it was just not meant to be. It is hard because I invested and trusted my heart but in the end it was broken to pieces. Now, I realized I have to be broken so I can be new again and be stronger on the next chapter of my life.
Even if those promises have not been fulfilled I am still grateful because God allowed a person to come into my life for me and my kids to give love and feel loved. Staying in this place I had friends who made me realize how valuable and important I am in my real world. Blogger Friends who never left me and are still here!
Going home is a beginning of a new chapter of my life. I have no idea what will happen..I have fears of how will I support my kids financially..what is waiting for me and my kids in our hometown..but I have faith that God will guide me specially on raising my kids. More than my troubled heart on love..my financial support for my kids future and being a mother for them is the most important thing I have to do. On love..I don't know..maybe someday?
I will have another check up..another reason why I have to go home. My parents and clan are worried about my health..but whatever happens I am ready! My family is there to take care of my kids. In my heart I know I have been a blessing and I have been true to everybody!
To my friends in blogger..Thank you so much for your prayers and to sis Marie who have been my sister..who have always sent e-mails since day one..thank you so much.
Always remember me when you see a Butterfly :)
I have to rest..Goodbye for now..don't forget to smile :)
I'll start again go back to one
I'm running things in my way
Can't stop me now I've just begun
I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to
Finally stand alone, stand alone