Whatever my reasons are the best armor I can do to protect my Shattered Heart is SILENCE. I always believed that in everything God allows to happen has a reason. We meet people and they come and go in our lives. One reason is to make us feel loved or to hurt us for us to learn and become stronger. Love is the best emotion a person can have but it is also the greatest pain one can experience when it is over. My heart is still shattered but not totally damaged.
God has given me this time to maybe seclude myself from the outside world. I have been serving people and thinking on how I can help someone smile and encouraging them to be strong. All of my life I realized that I forgot the most important person - MYSELF. I will still continue to touch people and to be there for them but for now that I am so down and alone I think it is time for me to learn also to reward and love myself more.
I am slowly rebuilding my heart because I believe that there is no such thing as a shattered heart but a heart that is learning to love more and be better. Forgiving myself from my past mistakes and for allowing those people to mistreat and fool me. It is not an easy journey but with one step of faith I know my heart will heal and learn to trust and love again. I still believe in love and I have to learn it the hard way.
"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!"
I guess the best thing I can do now is to Hold on and love people silently. I have been loud at times and vocal of my feelings but now I learned that the best way to let my heart heal is to be silent and just let this love be an inspiration for me to move on and still hope that there is a road to FOREVER. To let God be in control and let love find it's way back to my heart.
Still hopeful that my heart will sing this song someday. A song I usually sang way back in my college days and until now if I just want to feel loved even without someone special with me.