I have second thoughts of writing this short article of mine because this site is usually on positive thoughts about life’s journey. But then again I am just another simple human being like you.!
I have been at least half of the journey of my life in this world I am living. I am 34; I have 2 kids, in the process of an annulment case and have a heart ailment. My heart was in pain last night and I felt like I am on a boat on the middle of the ocean that has no definite destination to where the winds would lead me. On this point of my life there is nothing left for me but to pray and wish that all things might turn out right. Of all the trials that I have been through since my childhood I can say that I am a strong person. But the question is how long will this strength push me to go on and how long will He permit me to stay in this world?
How I wish to always be there for persons who needs comfort and love. To be always there when they need me the most. To be always they’re to make them smile everyday and hear their laughter on my simple jokes. I wish to be always there to feel them they are loved and that they are special in every way.
I wish to hold their hand and say I will always be here. To look into their eyes and dry their tears. To see them smile and say thank you for being there. To let them feel my embrace so they could feel how much I love them.
But how can I give all my love if all that life has given me was mostly hurts and pain? How can I face the world with a smile when almost all of my strength is gone? How can I give love when I always Battle Against Time?
How I wish that I would have time in my hands. That one day I will be able to see God's promise of happiness to come in my life. How I wish that my life would have more time. Not for myself but for me to make my kids, parents, loved ones and more people to feel my love and to make them special in my own simple ways!