~Unplanned..

“You never know what life has in store for you, but I believe there are certain things one is meant to go through.” ~Gloria Estefan~

All of us go through this journey in our lives. A few years back I should say I was on the peek of my career. I was about to be promoted to be a branch cashier in a bank but something bad did happened and I had no choice but to resign. I had miscarriage and I can’t have a baby while having work.

I have plans before of being a career woman at the same time having a perfect happy family. I had planned to have my own business too and having my kids enjoy the life and freedom that I didn’t have when I was young. I was physically abused when I was a child so I promised myself to give all my love to my kids.

For the past 10 years..All of these things that I have planned for was blown away like a dust in the wind. All of it just exploded and all the pieces I have built for a long time crumbled. I had gone through the toughest time of my life but I have no choice but to hold on for my kids. To be strong for them because I am their Mom.

All of these came to my life unplanned. As I was reading on the different blogs yesterday I keep on saying to myself we all go through a journey in our lives though differently. Some of us may go through pains of betrayal. Loving someone, giving our all but ended up being betrayed. Some of us may have been always one’s Option and Never been their Priority. Or some people may just come and teach us a lesson, hurt us and then Walk Out.

We may have felt irrelevant to some people. Neglected us for no reason. Taken us for granted and just left us in one corner pretending we have not been a part of their lives. Some of us may have been tired and pushing ourselves too hard just to fulfill our dreams.

All of these situations in our lives came unplanned. We did never wished for these things to happen in our lives right? No one I know would wish to have hardships. I know because I have been through it. My relatives and friends would always say I am a strong person because if they would have been in my situation now..They would have gone insane or committed suicide.

But these same Unplanned situations in my life gave me strength to hold on to God even more. I had many tears so much and if only I could shout now I will. I have always believed that in every pain that I have gone through all of it came with a purpose. Though I may not see it now, though I am still waiting for my prayers to be answered. I know God is still there listening to my every cry.

Not all people are the same. I may have been hurt and betrayed from my past but I won’t let myself get stuck on my past. I won’t dig up those past hurts anymore. We are all created differently and my kids and I will soon have the true happiness we have been waiting for. All of us deserve second chances in our lives.

Now even if I have no career I have the noblest work of being a single mom. Looking back I love my life now more. My kids and I are more bonded than ever. I have freedom because I am not pretending anymore. I am enjoying the real me. My life of having a fake smile and a masked heart that where full of anger and lies has now been set free.

A woman who has learned to stand up, move on and hold to the life that I have now because I am not alone. I have them. I may not have the most successful career. I may not have the riches in life. I may not be a woman that any guy wishes to have. But I know I am a woman who knows how to love. A woman who has survived and moved on.I may not know where these steps would lead me and my kids but I am certain that God will lead and guide us along the way.

"God Never Draws a Plan Without a Promise; He Never Puts a Path without a Pointer and Never Sets a Life Without a Purpose .. We just have to accept every situation in our lives and MOVE ON"

this song always makes me cry

Sie on Emo mode ;)