Last night I was alone inside my room. Every 10 p.m. I would always go to the other room to pray and listen to music while waiting for my quiet angel and I to talk on the phone. Suddenly I found myself sad and crying.
I remembered my past hurts as I prayed. I found myself asking the Lord am I a bad person to experience such trials in my life? I am an only child but since childhood I was abused physically. I had miscarriage because of my ex husband, my children and I were physically and emotionally hurt by him, pressures on my annulment process ( hopefully it will be finished this month or early June yehey) and I have a heart ailment. These things have made me weak to go on my life’s journey.
When my quiet angel and I talked on the phone he asked me why am I crying? I told him and asked him.” Hon am I a bad person to have these heavy trials? Why me?” He said, “Hon He gave you those trials because He knows you can handle it.” “You are not a bad person because He gave you your two lovely kids who are kind and intelligent, He gave you your parents.”
My quiet angel is right I failed to see how God has also always been they’re comforting me and giving me persons to help me to be strong. Sometimes we tend to focus on our trials in life and failed to see the reasons and lessons behind each obstacle in our lives.
Lesson Learned: No matter what you’re going through, if you look hard enough and keep the right attitude, you can always find something good about the experience. God gives adversity to test our faith and mould us to whom He wants us to be. Everything in life has it’s own purpose no matter how painful it maybe.All of us has been given Chances in Life and Love.It will always be our CHOICE to stop or move on, to hold on or let go.
My CHOICE is to hold on because of the love that I have for my kids . Not only for them but also for myself because one day I know God will answer my prayers. I don’t mind having a successful career or riches in life. What I always prayed and wanted was to have a happy and complete family.